Emotions

How important are human emotions? What is the importance of humans sharing those common emotions? I have wondered so m!any times, what if I had some semblance of normal human emotions. How different would my life be. Over achievers are born out of a desire yto achieve the extraordinary. Has anyone ever wondered why ordinary is not enough for them?

I have some idea of this scenario, in my entire life I have never seen normal. I have witnessed an absent childhood, my achievements, my glorious days of childhood went uncelebrated. My parents were there sort of, no interest towards me I had seen. That was still normal for me. Then I saw deaths, diseases and life threatening conditions even before I was a teen.

In my eyes I had seen the horrors before the joys, the rawness in me was taken away by the hard truths of life and I lived through them. I may have never felt loved but I did survive. Its so hard to live when u can't do the simple things in life but could solve unsolved problems in this world. People ask me that how I do all this, I don't have the guts to tell them that even for my worst enemies, I wish them to not go through my life.

I am lost, I definitely need a way. I know I can survive but I don't want to fight anymore I want to live. Then I wonder whatever I am thinking right now is a product of I don't how many chemicals churning my brain and then I wonder who put all these thoughts in my head. What is life , what are these emotions?

The Greatest Game Ever Played

It's highly likely that humanity has no goal. Our aims and desires are limitless. When will we say that it's enough. If, we say it aren't we on the verge of extinction. We survived because we compete and our brains are hardwired to win irrespective of our talent's skills and capabilities. It sets us apart as we will do anything to win. our mind does not know what is it to lose.

But is the mind us or a part of us. If it is a part of us, we are in big trouble. A part of our machinery which was always a leader in its own right has been pompously upgraded to its own unique class of being the contrtoller. A part with that much control will always aim for preservation. What if, it needs some competition to rise to the level it can be. What it, if after such a long time we have still got it all wrong.

I don't know if our lives have any purpose or we are the epitome of an unstable disease capable of consuming everything in sight. Maybe we have been into contamination, isolated from the world to wither away and die. With it all existence of us annihilated and the world be free. Maybe we have no future and are born to consume each other. Survival of the fittest they say it is. What if I am the fittest and the last man standing. Alone will it be and life will laugh at us for being victorious in the biggest struggle but one step away from a nameless end. It would be the greatest game ever played.

An even greater irony is the fact that I as an individual will not live even enough to understand the situation. For all that I can see, my mind stops me from being successful.

What is the idea? What do we want to achieve?
Money, a good fuck, acceptance, fame, immortality, love ?