How important are human emotions? What is the importance of humans sharing those common emotions? I have wondered so m!any times, what if I had some semblance of normal human emotions. How different would my life be. Over achievers are born out of a desire yto achieve the extraordinary. Has anyone ever wondered why ordinary is not enough for them?
I have some idea of this scenario, in my entire life I have never seen normal. I have witnessed an absent childhood, my achievements, my glorious days of childhood went uncelebrated. My parents were there sort of, no interest towards me I had seen. That was still normal for me. Then I saw deaths, diseases and life threatening conditions even before I was a teen.
In my eyes I had seen the horrors before the joys, the rawness in me was taken away by the hard truths of life and I lived through them. I may have never felt loved but I did survive. Its so hard to live when u can't do the simple things in life but could solve unsolved problems in this world. People ask me that how I do all this, I don't have the guts to tell them that even for my worst enemies, I wish them to not go through my life.
I am lost, I definitely need a way. I know I can survive but I don't want to fight anymore I want to live. Then I wonder whatever I am thinking right now is a product of I don't how many chemicals churning my brain and then I wonder who put all these thoughts in my head. What is life , what are these emotions?
I have some idea of this scenario, in my entire life I have never seen normal. I have witnessed an absent childhood, my achievements, my glorious days of childhood went uncelebrated. My parents were there sort of, no interest towards me I had seen. That was still normal for me. Then I saw deaths, diseases and life threatening conditions even before I was a teen.
In my eyes I had seen the horrors before the joys, the rawness in me was taken away by the hard truths of life and I lived through them. I may have never felt loved but I did survive. Its so hard to live when u can't do the simple things in life but could solve unsolved problems in this world. People ask me that how I do all this, I don't have the guts to tell them that even for my worst enemies, I wish them to not go through my life.
I am lost, I definitely need a way. I know I can survive but I don't want to fight anymore I want to live. Then I wonder whatever I am thinking right now is a product of I don't how many chemicals churning my brain and then I wonder who put all these thoughts in my head. What is life , what are these emotions?
